I WANNA JIAN FEI..T_T

make up my mind on tat n yet end up eatting mroe n more..wtf..haiz..when den can i ever ever slim down..

esp with my height i look like a ball..omfg

haiz..i really beleive tat there is a veri veri serious prob between mi n him..wher gt ppl stead till lidat de..gt stead n dun stead doesnt make a diff..maybe jus in bed..zzz..n i dun see any diff frm him as a bf n as a fren..time to reflect on it le ba..gg to 2 yrs le..is he realli e one i wanna to settle with..

deep in my heart i noe i realli wanna settle down with him..bt on the surface i mus act as if i dun gif a damn..y make life so diff..haiz..coz its all of his freaking mindset..so mus well jus go along with it..

n learn some new things from laurel..keep in view..n mus learn hw to let go..she sae can find a better one out there n sae tat we shld go pubbing at least once per week so we can find better one n keep in view..lmao..i think is she will end up drunk everytime n i got to bring her home which is jus beside mi..?

realli had the tot of moving out..maybe soon..maybe after i grad le find a job n settle for 3 mths n im gg to move out..if nt maybe i will move in with him one day when i realli cnt tolerate anymore..

but jus seeing him few days a week also can always quarrel..imagine if we are staying together..haiz..

money is wad i m lacking now..MONEY MONEY MONEY..!!!