3 Fs


hmm..think realli its jus over ba..cant even be frens..he sae he wanna end his life..i m realli scared for him..ssometimes i realli jus feel like dragging him to see xin li yi sheng..maybe i also need it one days soon..anyone noe any good doc to intro..if he realli decide to do it..i think i will jus go crazy..coz i m the trigger of it..i wil forever be a sinner..i will nv be able to forgive myself..

yest nite go drink with lance..than talk abt lots of thing..its like he is e onli one i can realli confine in..onli he noe my deepest trouble..maybe coz he is my jie mei n we belong to e same group of ppl..thats y he can see my deepest prob..duno y everyone jus noe hw to confine their probs to mi like i dun haf my own lidat..n they jus confine n nv listen..even if i wanna to sae they also wont understand de.. lol..so pathetic rite..

yest when working jaye ask mi go motivate all e ppl in e restuarant coz all no mood to work..than i ask her..whos gg to motivate mi..? guess wad she sae...
she sae i can motivate myself de..wtf..i m realli nt so strong as wad she think..nan de she so kan de qi wo..

can see the immediate changes in him..maybe im also changing..jus like him..frm bad to worst..?
hmm..nt maybe..i m sure i am changing..more n more like the last time me..living ridiculous life..jus playing n playing n playing..maybe everyone jus haf the hidden part of them bt its jus sooner or later they will show it out..

maybe might even be worst than lance.. he sae great teacher produce good students..lol..even wanna gif mi teachers day present..wtf..he than is e one who teach mi bad lorx..he than is my teacher lorx..maybe i am realli more pro than him..? coz i gt diff side of mi when im at diff places n with diff ppl..now i also duno which side is the real mi..maybe non or maybe all..

than drink till quite drunk ba..nv drink when u are in a super bad mood coz u super easy get drunk.. than jus sit there n talk n cry n talk n cry..haven realli had a good cry after that thing..

3Fs for lance..fcuk..flirt..flings.. thats wad he is trying to enjoy now..